Ch. 40 Time to Show Your Cards

Here's thinking about you Babe!

Hi Guys,
Just getting up and I haven’t a fucken clue how today will go yet, probably just like all the rest, nothing much to write about, well, maybe. Everyone is off to work except me, that’s coming soon enough though. So, I get my lazy ass out of bed and today for one of the few days ever, I stop in front of my wife’s full-length mirror. It’s one of her antique pieces she calls ‘occasional pieces’ throughout the house, I tend to call them ‘old shit’ or ‘great-grandma’s shit’, filling the house! Oh well, that’s not today’s problem. I know I’m stalling, that’s a given, but I’m really looking at my new 57-year-old self now, trying to see if my outside body was getting old; inside my head, I’m way younger than 57, that’s for fucking sure!

The first thing that screams out at me, ‘where the fuck did my body hair go?’ Okay, I go back to the bed table on my side and put my glasses on, there that’s better, not much better though, and then I realize my tan has gotten much darker, and my body hair is light brown, they match in color. I’ve got no fucken contrast anymore! Even my ass is tan! And, remember back on Larry’s boat ride when my balls were getting red, they’re tan now too! Now that I have my own undivided attention, I check out the rest of me in the mirror, I lost those few extra pounds I put on with Larry at Big Sur, yay! So, I blow out my gut, and decided that was the stupidest fucking thing I did today so far! Suck that gut back in and never do that again in front of a mirror! There that’s better, and then I tell myself, ‘Dip-Shit, (my favorite self-deprecating term for me), you can still fit into those size 34 slacks, that not bad, huh?’ But the realist living inside my head said, those size 36 slacks give my balls more room! Yeah, I’ll stay with ball room, screw the stomach and ass in this equation. So, I forgive myself for being middle-aged; I’ll never see the inside of my size 32 jeans ever again; I might as well donate them!

But I’m not done with the mirror yet, I know how to stall better than most people I know. I tried to look at me with my Babe’s eyes, what does he see in me that turns him on so much. And, I run into a fucken brick wall, we are so different from each other. Well in some ways, not; you know what I mean by now, I hope. I love his curly blonde head and body hair, and he loves that I don’t look like that, that’s convenient, I guess. And then, I put myself down a lot writing these blog chapters, but you know, as I’m turning to see my ass, I’m not so bad looking myself! At least people think I look like someone in his forties, that ought to count for something, right? The fact that Larry, is 4 ½ years younger than me, doesn’t help, since he can pass for someone in his thirties! The little fucker! [You know I don’t mean that Babe! But if someone calls you my son once more, grrrr. I’m only kidding, I think!]

Enjoying the rain shower head

I decide the mirror is right, I am hot looking, I know, the mirror just said so, didn’t you hear it? I just know it did! 😁 Well, it’s off to the car wash shower to waste more fucking time now; any date my dick has with Larry is unknown at this time, I might as well get myself off, my dick’s on its own today! I’ve been doing my best lately to not jerk off if I knew I’d be with him, I get so horny that way. However, this morning I turned myself on big time, with that old mirror of my wife’s! I’ve always been basically, a horn dog, but today I can’t wait to get all soaped up! I’ve been horny in the past before Larry and I connected, but never this horny! I used to fantasize about what it would be like with him over the years, but now I just call up real memories of us fucking or sucking each other off, sure as hell beats fantasy every time! You know, I’m going to see if there’s any paperwork on this mega shower of ours, “Hey Siri, remind me to look for a manual for the Master Bathroom shower!” “Okay, I’ve set a Reminder for you.” I’m just wasting more time, but why, my dick is waiting on me!  

TIME TO GET THE CARDS ALL ON THE TABLE

My dick wasn’t the only thing on my mind in the shower, or those damn shower knobs, no, I was thinking about what my wife told me a few days ago. Remember, Larry and me putting on a show for them? Yeah, that shit is still in my craw, and gnawing at me. It’s time for the Marcus-with-balls to get to the bottom of this, once and for all. We are getting close to our vacation together this Summer, and I want this solved before then.

If for some reason, you are reading this without having read the previous chapters, I’ll catch you up. Briefly, our wives came up with ‘all horny men seem to like the idea of two women getting it on with each other’, so maybe he and I could do the same for them. Specifically, maybe do a 69 for them to watch. And, as I can’t recall at all right now, would they consider doing the same for us, I don’t think they committed to that. Okay, got the picture now?

Larry of course, is dead set against this idea, even liberal old me is against it too. I don’t want to show anyone what we do together, I’ll talk to you guys about it, but I’m not ready to share it with our wives! Even if their request is legit! Although, we’ve never bought into this request of theirs. Larry and I are convinced it’s just a trap they are setting for us. And, maybe it’s really from my wife, not Ellen as we were led to believe. 

We did get through the nudity thing without a hitch; maybe it’s that we’ve all been close friends and next-door neighbors for eight years. I’m more surprised at my Babe than anyone though. Prior to our weekend trip to the lake in March, we’ve never been naked together. I always figured we’d never get to that stage ever, he knew I swam naked, and he told me he has sunbathed naked in his yard, but both of us have done that alone. I need to talk to him on that big change of his, it fascinates the shit out of me! It’s not that the two of us can get naked together, it’s that he could do that in front of my wife, his wife is a given. My opinion, if that really matters, he’s wanted to be the guy he’s turned into for a long time. It’s just his cover act was extreme. I’m betting Larry has wanted to be in my pool with me naked from the first time he set his eyes upon me, God knows I did! But neither one of us wanted to break our cover, I guess. [Babe, you can text me your answer as soon as you read this, that way we don’t have to talk about it, unless you make it real sexy! 😅]

So, back to the cards on the table, see I didn’t forget! I’m going to figure out a way to get my wife to play her cards on this thing when she gets home from work today. I’ll be sure to make something nice for dinner, you know, butter her up some, and then lower the boom for dessert! Ha ha, I hope, I don’t know, lately I seem to question my own ability to run the show lately; now everyone else has tried their hands at running the show! Time to get me back on top again!

Why would they like to see this? I know!

I’ve got to get to the bottom of this tonight. How did the two of them get to the point of wanting to see two guys getting it on together. When did they decide that their two naked hairy husbands, sucking dicks could be such a turn on for them?  Is my wife ready to see his hairy ass and big balls up close and personal? What will Ellen think when she see my naked ass and balls? 

So far, the two of them have seen us naked at night, in dim light; two naked guys, with flaccid cocks, thank God, at least at a decent length, without erections. I’m guessing since Larry and my dicks are built the same, when we got an erection for them, it’s going to be a boring, what else is new. That is if we both got erections, I’m betting my dick has its own opinion as to whether there’s going to be a hard-on to show off. Maybe if I thought for one minute that they want this for real, I wouldn’t question my ability to produce a hard-on for them. I’m banking on Larry heading for the hills, if this ever came to be real! [Sorry, Babe! I’m getting to know you extremely well lately! But you could surprise me I guess!]

DINNER AND EXPOSED CARDS

I had dinner ready for her as soon as she came home, no stalling tonight! She said she’d be ready as soon as she got comfortable. I understand, she must dress very professional at her job, at home, it’s let the boobies free! If I had to wear a bra, that would be the first off me too! In a couple of minutes, she had a caftan on, that means that’s all she had on, again, I don’t blame her.

My dinner meal choices, which aren’t important here, but were received well by her; I steered the conversation to the subject I want answers for no later than tonight. I caught early on that she knew where this was going, and for the first time I sensed trepidation in her voice. I know her well, I know how she operates at work, and occasionally with me, well my dear, that ain’t gonna work for you tonight! 

As I’ve said many times here, I’m a guy who puts things out there first whenever possible, tonight is no exception. If I’m wrong, I’m the first to apologize for not knowing better, or whatever excuse I come up with at the time. I decide to soften the blow for her by giving Larry’s wife Ellen the majority share of ownership. At this point, I’m not sure which one of them started this; common sense points to Ellen, my wife considers me half-baked anyway. If she suspected anything like the charges against Larry, she’d just come out and say it boldfaced to me. That’s the relationship we have. I’d rather it be that way too!

Okay, here goes, “What gave you girls the idea, that Larry would ever consider having sex with me, in front of you two?” And before I let her answer, I added, “I understand why you two didn’t point at me first, I get it, I’m a wack-a-doodle around here, capable of just about anything; kind of hurts my feelings though.” She took a moment for herself, sipped again on her wine, just as she would do in negotiations at her work, I guess. She has the floor, she knows that I won’t speak again, and the ball is in her court now. “Marc, as you probably already guessed, it’s not me, even though I brought it up for Ellen. I know you’ve been upset with Larry for all the stuff he’s said to you over the years. You were unhappy with him for a long time, and yet you guys are such good buddies; you obviously know much more about him than we do. Right?” So, she threw it back to me. Okay I have this; I’m feeling the control of the situation coming back to papa!

I throw a question or two back to her about Ellen, hopefully to get more than a single word response. “Honey, is jealousy over the time he and I spend together, a contributing factor here? And what exactly has Larry done recently, to lead you both to suspect him of being gay around me? If it’s just the time we are spending together, I’ve got nothing else to say. I think we have explained that good enough to both of you already.”

My wife told me that she really hadn’t spent much time even thinking about Larry lately. In fact, she was so happy for me that I could really enjoy some alone time with him, after all, for eight years, that just didn’t happen. I thanked her for understanding how much I appreciated the opportunity to have this time with him, he is the only guy I call my best friend. I told her, “you know my job has me docked at home most of the time, just meeting ‘real guys’ was next to impossible. Larry has been my only connection to other men.” She agreed with me, and is 100% on board, so let’s move over to Ellen. I said, “so, what is her problem?”

My wife was either unsure, or keeping Ellen’s confidence for as long as possible, however, she’s leaning towards the jealousy idea. Maybe, that’s just for us because I brought that up. The one thing she didn’t want to get into, was putting Larry, my best friend, into a ‘gay box’ for now. There’s not enough evidence to even go there; we’ve been super careful, well, mostly careful around them. We could do better!

I figured I could bring up a couple of things that might give her a better idea of what ‘Bro Life’ has become for us, since March. (Don’t worry for us, I’m not going to be stupid and tell her anything to get us into trouble.) I decided to tell a ‘Bro story’ that she could relate to, I’m sure it will be okay. I told her one night in the trailer at Big Sur, it got very cold, that was well after going to bed. I woke up during the night very cold and realized the heater hadn’t turn on; Larry must have turned the thermostat off during the day. I have let him handle anything dealing with the trailer, the last thing I wanted to be blamed for is breaking stuff. I continued my story with, “I took a big chance to see if he’d let me spoon him to keep us both warm.” “No, you didn’t do that, and naked too?” “Sorry if that offends you, yes I did! The most he could have done is push me away, or say something typically nasty to me, but he didn’t.” “Okay, now you have my curiosity wetted, what happened?” “Well, I put my arm around him to rest it on his belly, and you won’t guess what he did, so I’ll tell you. He reached back to my butt and push me closer to him, and then put his arm on mine. He just said, ‘thanks for keeping me warm, buddy!’ So, if you girls really want to know about us, we are now very comfortable together and try to take care of each other too. I love being brothers with him now, especially since we had our trips this year.” Guys, everything I told her is the truth, that did happen except for two little exceptions, one, there was no chance in hell that he’d reject me, and two, my hand wasn’t on his belly for long before it found his dick! So, the story won’t be hard to remember, because it happened just like that, the little extras are just for us guys! See, I throw you sexy bones all the time! 😉

My wife didn’t say anything at first, but eventually told me that it sounded exactly like what I might do in that situation, but she was a little surprised at Larry’s response, but said, “I guess he’s been trusting you lately.” I just said, “we have a great relationship now, I couldn’t be happier!” 

I brought up Larry’s getting naked in front of them lately, “what do you both think about that?” She threw it right back at me, probably because she doesn’t have much to offer on this, “what did you think about it?” “Well, I asked you first, but if you don’t have anything, I’ll go first. I think it’s one, awesome, two, unbelievable, and three, refer to point one!” She laughed along with me, and offered, that it was about time that the two of us got over whatever kept it from happening. And then said, “come on, you are grown men, best friends, what’s the big freakin deal? Ellen and I got over it years ago.” “Years ago?!” “Yes, you guys seemed so afraid of being naked together, even though both of you do so alone, all the time. You know, that modesty act of yours was just so freakin weird for us, so, we never wanted to tell you guys about us.” “Don’t you think, now, that if you had told us long ago, that maybe Larry and I would have gotten over it too?” “Nah, I don’t think so, you guys didn’t have a chance in hell back then!” I thought to myself, she’s fucking right, I was scared shitless at times around him. I wasn’t going to gamble his friendship away, frivolously.

And then, something I wasn’t expecting was said next, she came up with, “BTW, what the hell really happened to change everything since March with you two?” I am not going to blow this, maybe I can put this to rest once and for all time! I told her my opinion was, “I believe there are two factors here, one getting him to drop the fear be of being naked with me when swimming. However, he was adamant about only I could see him that way, remember, he said you couldn’t come outside or peek at him through the window.” “Oh yeah, I do remember, I could have cared less about seeing him naked in the pool with you, that was an easy request to accommodate for me!” “And, I believe the other big factor was having a couple of days together in the woods and lake. We finally had time to talk about our friendship and learn more about ourselves. Obviously, we needed the second trip to have almost unlimited time together, which helped us truly want to be close brothers.” “So, do you really think you needed all that time? I mean, say you love each other, done deal, come back home!” “Well, I guess you don’t know enough about how guys work, they don’t work that way, at least we don’t. Come on, it took almost 8 years for him to get comfortable with me naked!” She said that maybe I was right about how long it would take, but it was not very smart of us! Oh well, she didn’t have to put up with nasty comments, or should I say his attitude. I’m really pushing the slowness of our progression to where we are today. I guess if you want to count the seven years and nine months to the first time naked together as slow, I’d have to agree. But, I sure as fuck was not going to lose him as a best friend by making him do something he didn’t want to do.

What I’ll never tell anyone except you guys is how fast that all changed on the trip to the lake in March. Larry and I have talked and talked about that trip, and how it changed us forever. I had come to believe one of us was going to break the sexual deadlock on that trip, it just so happened to be me. But I could see subtle changes in Larry, when we were together more and more leading up to the trip. I’m sure that he would have made a move on me, if I gave him the look it was okay. He was giving me those looks for a while now. I asked him about that, and he did say it was about time to be honest with each other. That maybe, that feeling made him look that way to me. I certainly agreed with him.

My wife and I talked more about the relationship I had with Larry, but she didn’t push any gay or bisexual angle, just how nice it was that I had someone close to me, just like she has with his wife. I could have pushed for more info on the two of them, but I figured, let’s get the Larry and me thing over first. I did offer her another tidbit about me and Larry, I told her that I have always thought he was the most handsome guy I ever met in my life, and it’s cool that he thinks I’m pretty good looking too! [Babe see I didn’t say beautiful or pretty! 🤜🏼🤛🏼] My wife echoed the comments back to me, “oh yeah, he is ‘p****y’, no contest there, and you my love are way more handsome to me!” “You just trying to make me feel good around him?” “Of course, I am, but you are a pretty hot looking old dude!” And she laughed, me not so much! Old dude, really? Just because I recently had a birthday, everyone is calling me old! But she did say I was hot 🔥 looking too! 😊

The conversation tonight between us was like none other in the past; she was getting turned on; me, the fucking breeze can turn me on! I really think sex is on the table tonight, no taking out her iPhone to book a sex date with me. Now, that turns me on! I hate anything scheduled; sex is on the top of that list too! Although, now that I think of it, what do Larry and have to do lately? Yeah, pull out the iPhone Calendar App. That’s different, right? Well, I wasn’t wrong, I was led into the bedroom tonight by her dragging me behind her by the top of my shorts; Larry would have dragged me by my dick! Both work! 

The sex was hotter than normal for us, maybe all that talk helped her, okay, me too. I felt tonight was more like our early years together, long before our quest for power positions at work, no question that work killed our sex life. Not tonight though, and one more thing, [Larry cover your eyes and ears], I did not have to imagine I was having sex with Larry to cum, that’s a fucken first in a long time! She really has pulled out all the stops tonight, but I was able to get her off first, and I was right behind her. We cuddled after sex, what’s going on here! We never do that. Oh no, I wonder if all this talk about Larry and Ellen has her thinking the same about us?

Larry said Ellen knocked his socks off the last time they were together, and now this thing tonight with us. Wow, are they thinking we may dump them for each other? Yikes! Why can’t my brain just accept it had great sex with my wife, and that’s all there is to it! Why, because my fucking brain doesn’t work that way! Brain, shut the fuck up and go to sleep, huh?

This is a good spot to tuck this Chapter off the sleep, huh? I think we got some things resolved today. Time to move on to bigger and better things, I’d say. I still haven’t discussed our plans for the four of us this Summer Vacation with you though. After Larry and I get some coffee this week, it will be the only topic that day, we must be prepared, and it would be a good thing to write about.

Take care guys!

Marcus off for the night!

Our journal continues in Chapter 41:

https://brosgonerogue.blogspot.com/2019/07/ch-41-every-mans-dream-well-its-ours.html