Ch. 14 Can We Talk?

MY DICK MUST WONDER WHO THE FUCK I AM LATELY

This could be me if he didn’t have a white ass, I’m tan all over

Man, I slept amazingly last night, or should I say early this morning? That was an intense pool party between my buddy and me! I think we might be a little waterlogged now, haha. I overslept, but I think I deserve it after that exhausting dual suckfest; Larry probably won’t wake up for hours yet! We both earned it! I already miss him, what a horny fucker I am; my dick must be wondering who the fuck I am after the past few weeks! I hope it approves of the way it’s getting used lately. No worry from me, there!

Here I am all alone again, my wife left a note telling me that she got called into work today, I don’t think her office can function without her running things! She loves her job, that counts for a lot, otherwise she’d bitch and moan about all the shit she must fix! I love my job too, why wouldn’t I, I work from my home office, set my own hours in the office, and don’t have to get all dressed up in business clothes every day.

Here's my virtual office

I Video Conference Online a few times a month from my home office. If I’m sitting at my desk, all anyone can see is my head, shirt and tie, however, just wearing that amount of clothing, annoys the shit out of me. If they only knew the rest of me is in my boxers and usually barefoot! I just must remember, don’t get up and walk over to a filling cabinet or my secret won’t be a secret any longer. I’m such a fuck-head on wearing business clothes in my home office.  I try to think ahead and have all the files I might need on my desk within reach before any Video Conference Call. I might be a fuck-head on this but add horny in front of it and you’ll know I’ve fantasized about ditching the boxers too! One day! One day I will! Most of the time the staff I Conference with are males, but there are women in our office too, and there are times they Conference with us as well. There’s not enough advanced warning about who’ll be in the meeting most of the time. I have a feeling, and it’s just a gut feeling, that a couple of the men I communicate with, either suspect my secret, or they are doing the same thing too! Just a gut level hunch! Haha.

Right now, I’m having a cup of coffee from the Pot my wife put on earlier, bless her heart, she left me half a pot too! So, I’m sitting on the deck that’s outside of my office door. It’s a small deck we built for the office. We had the window replaced with a windowed door so I could get away from work to clear my head for a spell. I have a small three-foot-wide table and two deck chairs that I use to sit and have my coffee, as I’m doing right now.

MY FAVORITE CLOTHES, NONE!

Still naked as a Jaybird

What I haven’t told you yet, is that I’m still naked as a jaybird. I’ve been naked since the swim and couch swing coupling from last night. I’m looking down at my dick right now, and I’ll be fucken damned, it still hasn’t shrunken down to my little buddy size. For once I look like one of those guys in the gym I don’t like to be compared to! It’s just almost full-sized but flat and tired looking, I bet the little rascal doesn’t have the energy to shrink back to normal! Haha. What am I laughing at, I should take a picture of it! So, I guess that’s how I’ll become the “shower” I’ve always wanted to be, huh? Just never give the little fucker a moments rest! Now I can laugh! Haha! I guess all that jacking-off in the past wasn’t what it wanted to make the change. So, I’m still looking at my dick and it’s waking up, maybe it’s the coffee and sun it’s basking in, but the little fucker decided to return to its mock-turtle size, oh well, I should have taken that picture!

Sometimes, I’ll have breakfast or lunch on my deck too. My Breakfast usually is a cup of coffee with a couple of "Mini-Moos" Half and Half, and a Belvita Biscuit; this is not a fucking commercial for them, I just use them every day. I love the shelf stable Half and Half, no more spoiled milk to ruin my coffee, and the biscuit cookies keep me from being hungry for hours. 

I just wanted to talk to you, my readers for a while. You have made my blog or journal way more successful than I ever expected. I can fill you guys in sometime on how big and worldwide it has become, if requested. I am totally grateful for your readership; it makes me want to get better at my writing too. I love to write, I just never shared anything with more than the few that read it. Maybe a couple hundred pages read. I’m not a professional writer, but I sure do talk a lot! My wife says I talk too much and tend to domineer conversations, I’m sorry, I never meant to do that.

Not long ago I sent a message to a very popular UK t.umblr.com feed, alanh-me, (See Back Story Page on Ch. 14 for more info.) I just wanted to tell him the guys in his feed are hot, that I found some pictures to use on my blog from him, and that we seem to share the same taste in men as well. I gave him a link to the Preface and First Chapter I wrote to see if he thought it was any good. He said he really liked my writing style and it made him pretty hard while reading it! That was great to hear, and then he put a link on his feed of over 80,000+ followers, and the rest is starting to be history! You guys that are reading my journal are a wonderful boost to my morale. And, people from so many countries are now reading my blog. I am committed to keeping the journal alive and horny for you, and me too!

I hope you don't mind me taking a chapter and talking to you directly, my Bro is still fucken asleep I guess, no word for a long time now. I'd really like to hear from you in the comments, I'll answer everyone who writes to the best of my abilities. Maybe you'll give me some ideas for future chapters to write?

JUST A HORNY FUCKING GUY

Frightened to think it’s just a flash in the pan 

I’m just a guy who’s horny most of the time, scared to death of acting on what makes me horny, it’s a nasty fucken circle that just repeats repeatedly! If you’ve read from the beginning of this journal you know that circle has been broken finally! But that was just less than a month ago, this is all so fucking new for me and my buddy. It frightens me to think it’s just a flash in the pan and will end up just a memory. Well, if it does go that way, what a Fucken memory to keep, huh?

Anyway, I’ve been writing this journal on my iPad Pro, the big one, almost 13”, so it’s easier to write on and still read it as I go! I have a laptop that I could use, but that piece of crap lasts an hour and a half before the battery goes, at least the iPad lasts over ten hours, sometimes all day before I must plug it in for a charge. Thank you, Apple! I use MS Word the 365 version because they let me have five copies with one subscription. I even have it on my iPhone too, but mostly to read documents if I’m away from my office. It has helped me to be a better writer too, it finds mistakes and alerts me. But, sometimes spell check is a bigger pain than a helper. It sure as hell didn’t like my language and would clean it up. I had to teach my “bad words” by putting them in its library. Fuck is not Duck, learn that you shit-head! 

After I’ve finished writing the journal, I paste it into Google’s Blogger, as plain text and then Blogger takes over and suggests better grammar than what I may have written! Good, what the fuck do I know about grammar? I just hope it knows what it’s suggesting for me to change.

The longest and hardest job I have after unleashing my horniness on you, is finding images to add to the story. My goal find .GIFs or .JPGs that follow the storyline, but more importantly, find guys that look the most like us. Obviously, on the weekend at the lake a few weeks ago, we didn’t hire a photographer to record us everywhere. If I did, by buddy would have clobbered me for sure, and nothing would have happened too, maybe fishing fully clothed, that’s it! For real, we are both in the closet with our bisexual activity, we’re not ready to come out just yet. I might come out before him I bet! I’ll get back to this later for you.

I’M AN HONEST NAKED GUY, REALLY

Nothing much to exaggerate about, huh?

I’ve been very honest with you about what we both look like, I’m not exaggerating anything about us, Larry and I found out what our junk looked like on his truck about halfway to the lake, I still am surprised of what I did then too. I’ve told you about that a few times already. So, I’ll take some of the mystery away from what’s real and what’s fantasy for you. If you’ve gotten this far into my journal, you deserve a gift. "Yes, that did happen for real!" And yes, it was the scariest thing I’ve ever done in front of someone I would never want to lose as a friend, ever! To this day I have no fucken idea where the courage came from, perhaps just the fact that I was so supercharged getting to spend time alone with him? However, discovering the fact that we were both hiding the one thing that made us nervous being naked in front of other guys, and that we were virtually built the same way and dealt with the same concerns, was cathartic, and so welcome. We didn’t need barriers to shield our “shortcomings”, we will be free to be ourselves the way we were meant to be. And, I think it’s the one thing that is responsible for this journal, and its success with you guys. Thank you, no, my average dick thanks you! 

That all said, I use t.umblr.com to find most of my images and google gives up some too. Finding guys like us, that are average cock-size, middle aged, with beards, and our types of body hair, is a fucking chore. A nice fucking chore though! If we weren’t so in the closet, I’d just use pictures of the real us, but we can’t have our real faces showing for the world to see forever. Maybe, once out, who knows. I know Larry has yet to believe he’s as gorgeous as he really is, it will take him time and I think his job might be in jeopardy if he showed up naked on the Internet, probably me too! 

Spoiler alert, there are a couple of pictures of the naked real me in the journal, that I may or may not have said that were of me. That’s your job to figure out which ones are really me! I wonder if any of you would pick the right ones? There are also a few pictures of Larry’s fine hairy ass that are so fucking close to what he really looks like, it’s uncanny! One picture that I found made me stop and wonder if it wasn’t really him. I blew the picture up until it pixelated so bad there was nothing left to look at! Seriously, if that guy and my Bro were naked together, and if their heads were covered, I’d have to really look hard. Of course, now that we’ve been so intimate, in your face intimate, I’d know the difference. So, I’m saying, I’ve done a great job of giving you a good look at my blonde and handsome Bro. 

As I’ve said, we both sport beards, and trim them about the same way, but Larry can grow his beard super fast and sometimes he just lets it grow longer, probably gets tired of all the trimming needed. I’ve also heard that his wife gets on his ass to trim it or lose it. My beard grows slower, so I don’t get shaggy looking at all. That goes for the rest of my body hair too. I’ll tell you a secret, we are both getting thin on top of our heads too, bitch! The hair everywhere else, just grows and grows!

Larry and I are not thin or fat, just have the pretty normal bodies of middle-aged men, and we both are okay with that. The term Dad Bods really does describe guys like us, we are comfortable looking, and we can still suck in our guts, but mostly choose not to.

If you are a guy in your 20’s or early 30’s, I could be your dad, I’m going to be 57 soon, don’t for a minute think because I’m that old that I’m not capable of acting your age; time aged my outside, my inside is still as old as my 30 year old son! Yeah, I don’t think he believes that too! I just don’t feel old, and I know I look younger than my age, because people don’t believe I’m that old when I tell them. Maybe they are just being polite to me, but I don’t care. I believe in me, and what I look like. Finding the one guy that I fantasized about forever, and he becomes my closest buddy, is awesome, but then finding out we could be super comfortable when naked together, I mean how great is that? 

AND THEN THE HAMMER DROPS

My Bro Larry is upset, too!

I just got a text from my buddy; he said his company is starting a big new project and he’s going to be the lead Engineer that will be in charge. Congrats, but that could mean it’s a build far from home again, and he might have to stay on site in one of the trailers they bring to the work site. Joy! Fucken joy! (Sarcasm here!) It was different before, when he left for weeks at a time, we didn’t have the lake trip changing everything about our relationship.

FUCK! DOUBLE FUCK! 

My day just got fucking blacker! I’m going to try to stay optimistic, I don’t know where the build is yet, maybe it’s close by, I hope so! Since he didn’t tell me where it will be, leads me think he wants to tell me in person. I’m deeply into him right now, and I could blow our cover for both of us! Just calm down, huh? Okay, I know how to calm myself in stressful situations, just do it.

Diving into the deep end of the pool, nice shot!

My decision, go to the edge of my deck and dive into the deep end of the pool. See, that’s why I stay naked most of the time, of course living in sunny California helps! So, that’s what I’m going to fucken do right now. But, I don't think it will change much except cool me off! Shit!

I guess I’ll talk to you on the other fucken side, after my sad fucken swim! I’m distressed, I bet you can tell! Sorry, I like to make people laugh and feel good about themselves, not bum them or me out! Maybe after my swim, I’ll feel better. Maybe. FUCK IT!

Our journal continues in Chapter 15:

https://brosgonerogue.blogspot.com/2019/04/ch-15-still-waiting-on-dreaded-news-no.html